Well, by now most everyone knows the struggles I have had with Christianity. I have spent the past year learning about God, The Holy Spirit, the church, and everything in between. I have built up my spirit and learned how to pray RIGHT. (Yes, there is a right way to pray that gets the job done.) I am aware that not everyone in my life believes everything that I believe. I know some people think i'm crazy, some think i'm "weak" and i'm looking for comfort. Others just think i'm being brainwashed..etc. However, I'm not the Christian I am today because of what a man told me. I'm not who I am because of a church. I am who I am because of the ENCOUNTER that I had last October with Jesus Christ. Yes, I had an actual encounter with JESUS himself. I know for a lot of people that is hard for them to wrap their minds around. People think its just a feeling I had..like a tingly feeling in my body. They couldn't be more wrong. I'm not going to take the time to explain my encounter on the blog because it is something very special to me. It is something that I only tell to people who have their ears and mind open for it. Now don't get me wrong, the man of God and my church is what pushed me to that point. And they are the ones who have continued to push me over the past year. I couldn't have done it without them-BUT GOD..He is the one who deserves all of the Glory!
You know I was an Athiest. One of the major things through my life that stopped me from believing in God was that I couldn't get any REAL answers to my questions. I went from Pastor to Pastor & person to person...just looking for SOMEONE who could give me biblical proof and real answers. Do you know that everyone told me the same thing? It was "You just have to have faith." Well, that wasn't enough for me. I needed concrete proof and evidence. I finally figured out that what the problem was is that the people I was asking..didn't really believe ALL of the Bible anyway. They believed in bits and pieces. How can some of God's word be real..but not all of it? So, finally. I found people who were Bible believing Christians. They knew the Bible, believed the Bible, and lived the Bible. I started to see what God was doing in their life and how if they prayed for something-they got it EVERY TIME. It was amazing to me.
So, God has given me a Word. I won't share it with everyone because i'm very careful who I share that kind of stuff with. But..He is working in me and has a big plan for me. There is a reason I am a Christian. More importantly, there is a reason I was an Athiest BEFORE I was a Christian. I'm not at the place that he needs me to be at at..but..He's giving me time to get there. I have a lot of work in ahead of me, but a GREAT foundation below me. I'm excited for the months to come & I know I will get to that level and title that I believe God has planned out for me.
Lastly, One of the most important part of being a true Christian is witnessing to other people. I don't want to keep all of God's greatness to myself! I know what it is like to be lost, confused, and filled with unbelief. I know what kind of struggle it is and how hard it can be on both the heart and mind. I am opening myself up to EVERYONE. Whether I know you well or not. If you have any doubt, questions, or would just like to know more PLEASE send me a message on facebook. I won't judge you or tell anyone else. Oh, and I know an AWESOME church that you can attend with me. With a pretty CRAZY Pastor. (Well, he's just crazy for God-and its great!) So, come to me and we'll talk. I don't have all the answers, but I can get you to people who do. And the answers they don't have...well..I know the ONE who can answer anything you have. I just fill like my spirit is telling me there is someone out there who is looking for someone who is real. I figured writing this blog would get out to a lot of people. Please! I am here to do God's work. And I have only been a Christian for a year-so we can learn together!
I not perfect. I don't do everything that i'm supposed to. One of my biggest faults is the disicpline I have to read the Bible like I should. I'm not going to lie, I should do it more and I will do it more. God doesn't want people who have it all together. He wants people who are messed up and are at the point where they give up. Once you put it all in His hands, you'll be amazed at how your life changes. God is just as real to me as my mom or Bradley. He is a person that I can HEAR and know what He says. You can have that too!
Thats all for now.
Have a blessed night!
